Journaling May 2021

Essays
Written By Nathan Box
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5/27/21

A good friend from Oklahoma arrives in Seattle today and it is exactly what I need!

5/26/21

People are so awkward when it comes to talking about mental health.

5/25/21

Later today, I am sharing a really honest account of my mental health over the last year. I am really nervous to share but feel compelled to do so.

5/24/21

Saturday, I spent most of the day alone. Mentally, I really struggled.

5/20/21

I paid rent today for the first time since February 2020. In a weird way, this feels like a small win.

5/19/21

I need to focus on growing my circle of friends before getting too involved.

5/18/21

I need to grow my circle of friends in Seattle beyond those who expect something from me.

5/17/21

This weekend, I broke down and told Brandon how alone I feel and how badly I miss Los Angeles. Being that vulnerable wasn’t easy, but it was necessary.

5/13/21

I will often spend hours crafting and writing an essay. In the moments before I share it with the world, I am filled with nervous anticipation and excitement. More often than not, I find myself disappointed by what isn’t read. After nearly 10+ years of doing this, I still don’t know how to shake this feeling.

5/12/21

I don’t have friends in Seattle. Sure, I have single-serving friends. With these people, we gather to grab a drink, share dinner, or hang out for the evening, but no one who I would call a best friend. I desperately miss having a best friend.

5/11/21

Today is my mom’s birthday. I love that woman with all my heart!

5/10/21

I am floored by the amount of stuff I have accumulated in 37 years. Going forward, I plan on being much more intentional about what I bring into my house.

5/7/21

Just a little more work and our apartment will feel like a home. I have been waiting for this feeling for a long time.

5/6/21

We are home!

Be good to each other,

Nathan

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Nathan Box
Hello! My name is Nathan. I've always believed I would meet that special someone in one of two places; either a record store or a book store. Maybe I need to amend? I moved to Seattle in February of 2011 from Oklahoma City (Try and not hold the Sonics/Thunder thing against me). I knew I wanted to work for a nonprofit and go to grad school. Within a couple of months, I was doing both. During the day, I work as a Fund Developer and Community Relations Manager for a nonprofit in Kent and at night I try to stay as busy as possible volunteering, trying new restaurants, finding hidden bars and exploring Seattle. The past few years has been both terrifying and exhilarating. I have done things on my own I didn’t think were within my capability. I love being outdoors. On any given weekend, I can be found hiking, on a road trip, volunteering, at a museum, seeing a movie (I see a lot of them). I am passionate about nonprofit work. I feel called to leave a mark on this world. Nothing against those who enjoy making tons of money, I just need to know I am making a difference.
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