I’m at a place in life where I am contemplating and questioning everything. I haven’t figured out if this is a good thing or not. Curiosity did kill the cat after all. But I need change, and more and more life is calling to me from all four corners asking me to take a chance to get out of my comfort zone.
I’ve always had so many questions about life and how everyone else lives. I wonder how others survive this world in whatever state of life they’re in. I wonder if others worry about the same things I do, like love and happiness, or if they’re just trying to make the ends meet like the sun to a clear Oklahoma horizon. I even think how great it would be to discuss all of these questions I have with the people who live it, with a cold drink and a hot plate. All this is what feeds my yearning to travel and experience culture in the homes and streets of those who are creating it.
As I’m questioning my current path, and searching for how to change, I also am looking internally. I have to be able to admit to myself what the real reason is for wanting change and living differently than I have so far.
Besides praying, my next thought is to make a list. I seem to be able to think more clearly once all my apprehensions are out on the table. What exactly do I want out of my change? Can I get far enough out of my comfort zone and make use of all the “crazy” ideas I have? Will I have enough money to sustain my want for these things? Am I brave enough for these changes?
But of all the questions I wrote down, there’s only one I really need answered: Who do I want to be?
At the end of the day, that’s really what we all want to know. So why not just skip all the rest and start the journey there?
This year will be different. I’m making it so by putting it out there, here and now. I’m setting my sights on all of those questions above and more. I’m planning to travel several places within the U.S. and abroad this year. I’m making it a point to confront life issues when they happen so I can learn from the situation better. I’m even working on how to become a better friend and how to make the ties to all my great influencers stronger. All this just to help calm my wandering soul (for now) and grow my curiosity into life experience so I can mold the clay of my life into who I aim to be.
While I don’t know what this year will bring me, I know I’m beyond ready to stop setting back, wondering and waiting for life to happen to me. I’m ready to make that leap and see if I can land on my feet…and live.
As Curious As Ever,